ShopDreamUp AI ArtDreamUp
Deviation Actions
Daily Deviation
Literature Text
Dear Mom,
[I know this really isn't a letter like I promised, but you should be used to me giving less then I say I will]
I'm going to feel bad, throwing you into the ocean.
I'm going to have to clench my teeth, close my eyes, and grip my hip [because you're there, forever; in jagged scar tissue with upside down mountain capped M's and a blocky O, you're there, forever.] to keep myself from diving in after you and gathering you back together with the finest cheesecloth, molding you back together and filling you with all the beautiful things you've been drained of. I'll jam sea glass in your eye sockets and replace your weak bird bones with coral, I'll fill your lungs with saltwater [because oxygen obviously never worked; I almost miss that respirator keeping me awake at night] and wrap you with seaweed to hold you together again.
And I'll let you speak by jamming the truths to all my lies I've told you down your throat. I will whispersobconfess all my dirty deeds. I will tell you how each dinner you made me up to your last day was sacrificed to the porcelain Gods with a push, push, push of the nails you polished Superstar Purple. I will tell you how my hips are your memoir, a mass of loving razorblade kisses and swallowed truths buried deep inside my skin; the color of the bruises on you bones. I'll tell you how I horded all your magic pills and sung to you the soft song of suicide along with the beep of the heart monitor, myself falling silent and hand finding it's way to my needy jowls when it hit is final high note of mourning. I will tell you how much smaller your little girl became; a child of corn stalk bones and brittle honey locks with shaky joints like yours and a cyanide smile.
Now, I can't tell you.
Now, you're ashes in a box, shadows in the back of the room, memories pressed into cheap photographs.
At least, I can't tell lies to ashes.
[I know this really isn't a letter like I promised, but you should be used to me giving less then I say I will]
I'm going to feel bad, throwing you into the ocean.
I'm going to have to clench my teeth, close my eyes, and grip my hip [because you're there, forever; in jagged scar tissue with upside down mountain capped M's and a blocky O, you're there, forever.] to keep myself from diving in after you and gathering you back together with the finest cheesecloth, molding you back together and filling you with all the beautiful things you've been drained of. I'll jam sea glass in your eye sockets and replace your weak bird bones with coral, I'll fill your lungs with saltwater [because oxygen obviously never worked; I almost miss that respirator keeping me awake at night] and wrap you with seaweed to hold you together again.
And I'll let you speak by jamming the truths to all my lies I've told you down your throat. I will whispersobconfess all my dirty deeds. I will tell you how each dinner you made me up to your last day was sacrificed to the porcelain Gods with a push, push, push of the nails you polished Superstar Purple. I will tell you how my hips are your memoir, a mass of loving razorblade kisses and swallowed truths buried deep inside my skin; the color of the bruises on you bones. I'll tell you how I horded all your magic pills and sung to you the soft song of suicide along with the beep of the heart monitor, myself falling silent and hand finding it's way to my needy jowls when it hit is final high note of mourning. I will tell you how much smaller your little girl became; a child of corn stalk bones and brittle honey locks with shaky joints like yours and a cyanide smile.
Now, I can't tell you.
Now, you're ashes in a box, shadows in the back of the room, memories pressed into cheap photographs.
At least, I can't tell lies to ashes.
Love,
Jess
Literature
daughter
I find her in my kitchen, one ordinary morning with the harsh winter sun tipping full through the window. I haven't seen her for six months, and yet here she is, bruised knees pulled up under her chin, the light pouring through her hair like dull bronze. Despite the cold she is only wearing shorts and an old gray t-shirt, two sizes too big. Upon hearing my footsteps she looks up from picking at her nails, covered in chipped black polish, multicolored threads and silver rings slipping down her wrists. Her hair is tangled and long; longer than I can ever remember, and she tucks it behind an ear studded with piercings that glint in the dark stra
Literature
To My Brother
My mother tended her first yield tender,
with slender fingers interlocked in a cradle
placed over her ripe stomach,
the calluses raised from farm labor
serving as little pillows for her son.
The first time she felt the quake underneath her flesh
the little feet,
the kicking feet that would someday hold up a man
she whispered his name,
Masahiro, Masahiro.
The son rising in the east to reflect her soul.
But dawn broke too early,
stretching its scarlet, wet arms over her underwear,
spitting defiance in a rush of water soaking her feet.
On the way to the hospital,
she clutched her splitting stomach,
screaming and ple
Literature
How To Say Goodbye
Dear Unborn Child, Whom I Let Go;
When I was thirteen and four months old, and you were thirteen years younger, I decided to let you go. You squirmed in opposition beneath my ribcage, up against my pelvis, and I licked my lips and tried to smile while I leaned my forehead on the cool glass of the car, hellbound.
I remember sea weed insertion, dilation, cramps and bleeding. Orange smoothies from Dairy Queen that I threw up, and I hoped you were mingling in the remains of my summer day treat, so I could put this behind me. Pretend I was 'moving on'. I laid in the bathtub of a hotel room for six hours, trying to melt you away in scalding water
Suggested Collections
Featured in Groups
Happy birthday, Mom.
I miss you.
I miss you.
© 2010 - 2024 AlloenDreams
Comments558
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
Overall
Vision
Originality
Technique
Impact
I honestly wish the stars on impact would let me go much, much higher than simply five. This was very powerful. Here, allow me to get all my compliments out of the way before I nitpick this ^^
Very well worded and written, clear message and lots of impact. Very moving, and I can feel the pain through the words. I love your choice of expression, and I must admit to being jealous of the talent God's graced you with. <img src="e.deviantart.net/emoticons/s/s…" width="15" height="15" alt="" title=" (Smile)"/>
Ok, that done, let me give me give my only complaint. First, the reference to the cutting of the hips, I think? I had two read it a second time to really grasp what it was referring to. And still, I'm not exactly sure. I hope I'm correct in thinking you etched "mom" with a razor into your leg in painful memory of you loss. Which I apologize for, by the way. Also I apologize if this wasn't what you were referring to, I couldn't really tell. Very descriptive on the point, though. You have good focus. I admire this, since whenever I write I tend to waver off the point.
Your choice of expression and all the original metaphors are what made me +5 on the "originality" bit. Very connective. Congrats.
And now for vision. So many wonderful describing words! Wow. Very clearly expressed. I loved how great you did on this. My only thing to pick at here is the situation was a bit cliche, with the letter and all. But who am I to judge? So I'll only use the right I don't have to deduct half a star from there.
There were no spelling or grammar errors that I picked out, but I'm the worst spellchecker on the planet, so don't ask me for help there <img src="e.deviantart.net/emoticons/a/a…" width="19" height="19" alt="" title="Sweating a little..."/>
Anyway, over all I enjoyed this piece and might I say you are a talented writer, my friend.