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  • Mar 16, 1994
  • United States
  • Deviant for 13 years
  • She / Her
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My Bio
“...throw roses into the abyss and say:
'here is my thanks to the monster who didn't succeed in swallowing me alive.”
friedrich nietzsche


(terribly inactive but promises to respond to all notes and does really try her best to get to everything else)

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i'm not sure how much point there is in writing here, anymore. i've toyed with the idea of taking all this own, removing the last remnants of my honest identity from the internet. but i'm not sure that i can bring myself to do it, not quite yet. this has become a depository for my thoughts, a resting place for my ideas and past selves. sometimes i look back to old journals and writings when i need perspective, hope, clarity. i'm at a turning point in my life now. adulthood is upon me full force and i think i underestimated both my ability to cope and ability to create a persona that seems capable, respectable, responsible. but the dissonanc
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considering the dd i recently earned, i just wanted to say thank you to all my new watchers and old who have stuck around for an odd update and writing drop. this may be my fifth one (i double checked that number countless times, i'm still in awe) but the shock never goes away. i went to write an update, and realized i have been gone for nearly a year this time. an entire year. i am so, so terribly sorry to everyone for being gone so long without a word, for not keeping in touch, or even checking my feed regularly. i've missed you all, i've missed your words, your art, and i've missed writing. i don't want to make promises i can't keep, but
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recovery has always been more like a wish in my mind. beyond all the journal bravado, the big smiles for my therapists, it was always something i never considered i would have, but rather hold for brief periods throughout my life. i tried my best to lie to everyone, to lie to myself that i really wanted it. and some days, i did. my most passionate, lively journals and pieces on here about recovery were me attempting to hold that motivation, just for more than a few days it hours, to pin it under glass. but, it never really stuck. i've never looked at recovery as a permanent state --i've always viewed my mental health to come and go like seas
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I hope your special day is as beautiful as you, darling one.  Missing you! :heart:
Happy Birthday, I miss you! :heart:
Happy birthday, sweet. As always, you are missed :heart:
I missed your birthday, so here are some super-belated well-wishes! You've been on my mind today. I hope your birthday was full of wonderful things and extra-warm smiles. Happy birthday, lovely. :heart:
Happy birthday, darling. I hope wherever you are, it is a happy one. :heart:
Congrats on your new DD, I am so proud of you.
I love you.